My DuMdUm World

Thursday, July 31, 2008

I realized i havent posted anything about my birthday yet.

Well it was over and nothing much happened. We had dinner at the Line, Shangrila on monday. The buffet spread was fantastic and so was the food. The presents were wonderful and so was the crowd.

Anyway, the main reason i'm posting this is because something came across my mind when I was showering.

People always say to be yourself to be yourself. But some people's natural side is an adaptive side. Meaning that their natural personality is to blend into situations and to blend and adapt to other people. Like if you're together with someone who likes to take the lead, suggest things then I would play the part of the follower. If you're together with people who have no opinion or dun know what they want, then I'll take the lead and suggest and do stuff. In that way, what's your "be yourself"?

I'm always myself. But i'm never rigid in my character.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:12:00 AM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Finally got to talk to Yiling on msn again today. She's coming back on either the 23 or 24th of August.

Somehow, she seems different. She sounds so cold now. Maybe its just my imagination.

Anyway, after talking to her I realized that yes, I do miss her a lot.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:50:00 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

I had a nightmare. Yiling came back. But she said that i didn't treat her very well because all the time she was there I only call her once. That got other people treat her better.

That's the gist of the nightmare. Then I remember saying. These things cannot joke one leh!

Wah its another night of uneasiness.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:57:00 PM

Haven blog for a few days already. Today as usual, went to meet esther and friends for pool. But today I was sick. I've been sick since saturday lurh. Havent had a good nite sleep yesterday either. Running nose become block nose. Very cham. Anyway, today quite zhun. Much more accurate than normal. Today got form.

Anyway, today Amantha joined us, but halfway thru the game, her bf emo and left. Then Esther said the guy very attitude. Cannot like that leave the girl all alone. Then she asked me, would I also like that treat my gf or not.

That got me thinking. I did that before too. But different scenario. My scenario was when the girl brought another guy along when we went out. Different. Even my friends also can tell that something is wrong. She never give me face, of course I also don't give face. So is different.

But I guess I won't feel jealous over simple stuff like Amantha's boyfriend. But I always feel uneasy about a lot of things. Like when Esther told me that a customer is trying to date Yiling, and I know that she and her classmates got go out with some of the customers. I don't feel easy. I know less of the picture than I should. But its not like we are attached or anything. I don't have the right to probe and ask. All I can do is have the uneasiness inside.

Anyway, Friday's my birthday! Most of the people can't make it on friday, and Saturday's martin's wedding. I guess I'll celebrate with Esther and all on the following Monday since we always go for pool anyway.

I think i might ask Audrey if she wants to go out on friday since I've got no plans. I don't know if I should, and I don't know if I'll regret it.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:50:00 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Weekly meeting today.

Nothing much in the meeting. Didnt talk about much. But i presented a very strange but important question to the team. "How much money do you think is a lot?" and "What is an income amount which u think is a lot?".

Here are some of the replies.
Melvin - $500,000 and $5,000 a month.
Desmond Lin - $1m and $10k a month.
Derrick - $500,000 and $15k a month.

Well, I was just curious because I didnt have an answer myself. I didnt know what was a lot of money or at least i didnt feel like i knew what was a lot of money. And most importantly, I don't know what is a decent income I am aiming for.

Just before my ICT when i was really. Really doing nothing much, a hundred dollars seemed like a lot to me. Maybe a little more, like 500 seemed like a lot. Then I went to reservist and my bank account rose to $3,000. Then I started playing poker again and started making money again. Now, I don't think that $5,000 is a lot. From this, I think that i am quite financially weak. I guess this is one of the first things I would need to improve before I achieve any financial goals.

But anyway, I finally realized a very serious mistake that I have been making. I've always read that success is built upon many small successes and that to earn your first million, you gotta first learn how to earn your first thousand, first 5,000, first 10k etc. then you'll slowly learn how to earn your millions. That's working forwards.

I've always been at the "I know to make my first 5,000" and "I know I can make my first 5,000". But i've not actually gone to do it. I guess that's why i've been stuck and haven't gotten any closer to my retirement goals.

Well, I guess that would start now. Now the first goal would be to first start making my first $5,000 within a month. If i can do that, then i'll proceed to a higher amount.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:52:00 AM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Forgot to update again.

Well, yesterday was our agency's half yearly meeting. The speaker they invited was a legend in our business. Michelle Thor.

She spoke of many things. Things which i find are quite important. Not only in business aspects but also as a person as a whole. She kept on stressing on the point about having a strong willpower. As long as you have a strong willpower, there is nothing u can not achieve. Also, about the positive energy. Now, everyone's heard about positive energy before. About positive mindset, about positive energy. But what enlightening to me was that having a positive mindset was not enough to bring all the positive energy about. You not only need to have it in your mind, but your body and everything about u must be positive. Dressing, body language, self confidence... Everything about you must be in a positive way. Only then can the rest of the things in your life be positive.

I've never thought about it this way before. I think its time to change a lot of things and start caring about a lot of other things too. About how i portray myself and how i behave.

Well, that's about yesterday.

Now for today's post.

Went off with esther to buy lots n lots of clothes today. The shop i really like, The British India Company, which has its main branch in taka (near the levis store) has a 2nd "sale" branch. I went to the original british india store first, and OMG the clothes were damn nice la... But they also cost about $500 each. I guess it'll be a long time before i start spoiling myself buying those kind of clothes. Instead, we decided to go over to centrepoint where the other outlet was having a sale. Bought 2 shirts from that outlet. Things that cost over a hundred cost like... 30-40 bux there. How could i resist? It is after all a brand i really like. Things like that are very rare. Then we walked over to plaza sing and visited people of asia. Bought a quite nice shirt. But kinda "young" haha... A bit "young" for me. But gotta adapt. I dun wanna grow up!

Next, went home for a shower then left for Bugis to meet benedict. His turn to go ICT. HA HA! But his reservist is in singapore so not so bad la. Anyway, met him and his girlfriend for dinner then i passed him the cigar. Then he told me he dun smoke cigars. Well, I guess there's a spare cigar for you, Mel! After dinner we played a few rounds of KOF. The new 98. Then i saw Ivan! Ivan!!! The long lost IVAN!!!!

Wah, he comes to bugis quite a bit i think. Anyway, he looks better now. After he really concentrate on this job of his, he really changed a lot. Maybe I should revisit him and help him redo his screwed up financial planning. I think i will.

Left bugis at close to 12 and took the 2nd last train. That's when I saw a secondary school friend of mine. I saw Li Ting. I think... no for sure. She was my greatest crush during my secondary school days. I can still remember how I would go to school early, cause i always go to school early and then walk out to the 7-11 to buy candy and pass her before school. We became quite close but never dated. Never even got the chance to go out with her alone. It was fun, but nothing really happened between us.

She looks more mature now, not so cute as last time, but much prettier. Looks quite different. My heart started racing once i recognised who she was. Suddenly remembered what it felt like back in the secondary school days. I think she's one of the few who can do that. Just the sight of her alone, makes my heart beat faster.

But well, that doesn't mean anything. Things have passed and i'm happy how things are. Just thought it would be nice to post it on my blog as a reminder =)

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:34:00 AM

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Came back on sunday, but i've been too busy to update my blog.

The whole trip was full of cock ups and totally hilarious.

Its too eventful for me to write alone. I'll be updating what happened there after i get a consolidated copy from my friends. Then i'll edit and write it up on the blog for u guys to read about how crazy it was.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 7:44:00 AM